new moon etc

i was excited to be watching new moon with some of my friends. i can still remember that i read the book for a year, can't hardly push through because of some fatalities that lead to edward-bella love story of breaking up...new moon for me is a tragic...made me depress, down and sad...

xo i brace myself and prepared for the movie...since almost all scenes are in the book, much like i'm reading the book again...and felt the pain again, felt a lil boredom, but much of more with the pain and loneliness...

since i was excited, i forgot to bring with me my jacket, my super jacket. I hate thinking that i wanna go out in the movie house because the cold is killing me, but i can't do it for i needed to see every scene. The hours passing by was really intense, i feel like dying and crying, feeling cold and watching jacob's hot body...hahah!! really, literary... haix...

the movie is a suicide, hallucinations only in dangerous scences wanting to see edward in reckless situations is something...i would do..hahaha! if it's the only way to see my one and only love then why not, how on earth would i live without the only reason for living in the first place...BUT... their will always be a word called "MOVING ON and GETTING OVER", well i think these are the words that are not in bella's vocab. well, i guess being madly in-love with a vampire is something.

i cried my heart out when reading the book, but now that i have seen it in the big screen, the pain was not as excruciating than reading it but still....their love story is about sacrifice, kinda sad but their are things in life that can happen no matter what it takes, it can happen and will be made possible.

back to me, in a minute of dying...i never really thought i cannot stand the cold, but it did... it's like my head's gonna blow because my body is freezing, can't hardly walk after that. i grabbed a cup of hot choco in my way to the hospital...we took a jeepney ride for it was early still and punched for like 10.12 pm. I rested for awhile and took medicine for my aching head. I would also like to thank sittie and ate asper for taking care of me. I appreciate it very much.

Now i am going to read the third book, it was really my plan to read after the movie so I have something to look forward to and.... I will never watch a movie again in the big screen without my jacket.

-xoxo-

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hmmmmm..trying to read another book..I'm browsing for books that I want to read or maybe I can put it my" List of Things I Want This Christmas", wow!! I'm thinking of ... "by the river flowing" and summit books...will update you later!

conceptualize

I know their's a reason for everything, I know everything happens with a purpose. I know God wants me to be happy and everything is according to God's plans...for this, I wanna say...AJA!

serenity

trying to lift my mind and not drown in desolation and chasm. I listen to my heart and trying to capture every beat of sorrow and happiness. For the past days and months I had decided something fatal but it can either be something very very good, not only for my future but for my life and the future of it.huh! tsk..tsk..tsk.. maybe someday my friends will see it as a good decision, my friends will accept and maybe bid me a good life, a life full with bliss and blessedness. I myself have some weariness but I trust in God alone and in Him I put all my worries. I can't try to write the exact words for all the things I need to say for these words are down in the abyss and darkness cover each letter.. I will try to uncover the dim, though I'm trying really hard to be those words that people are trying me to be, but deep inside my heart and mind, God will be with me to guide me and protect me no matter where I go, no matter what i do. By that, I can find serenity in my mind: )

new entry

I bumped into a friend just lately and told me that, I haven't updated my blog site, that's why I'm making this entry, well I'm happy that people are reading my blog...hehehe! I've been trying to find my destiny lately or destiny's tryin to find me much more than finding it, since I have been believing that everything happens for a reason and no suffering comes without a purpose..ouch..I guess I just faced my deepest, exciting, thrilling but scary future, but I'm much into a good future cooking for me..as what I have learned in the lessons of the "law of attraction", it drags my attention into a purposeful future ahead of me *smiles* and since again I had taste both felicity and anguish with my first time opportunity in tha big city or more like of a choatic city...that's why I don't want to put everything in vain.I know God has a plan for me and for all of us and everything will just be a matter of time.

wink*

I've been sitting and thinking whole morning. I don't know what might happen but for sure I know that God has a plan and I've always believe that everything happens for a reason: ) Vamos!

ouch

I've had enough of everything yesterday and getting the most of almost today...can't figure that one out..i'm on antibiotic, pain and inflam therapy....arghh..but needed to do it. Done with my 3 days off and will get head start, with my full blast, whole week duty. I hope everythin will get better soon, including the one I'm praying: ) gotta go...

now

Drowning in depression? Nahhh I can't say it like that..maybe I'm drowning in...All the things i want in my life but I'm not doing anything about it! haiii!! Still I keep pushing myself to the things I want the most and keep on dreaming..but hey wake up tweegz!! all this?! please make it to ur reality please!! starting today!! please do it..don't just dream on! make it happen!! it's your call, all the things......right in front of you..make up ur mind! start NOW :) *sigh----*

so long

I listen to my heartbeat while looking at my aunt packing her things for Manila. Looking at her, she can no longer decide which to bring and which to give-up. Some were given gratefully to my cousins. It was kinda dramatic, seeing loved ones leave and by the way, tita heids and Ali will leave the country after staying in Manila for 1 day then they'll be off for Canada. How hard it is for me to accept that they'll be leaving for good, all for a better future, I guess everybody wants that. After a decade in KSA, my aunt decided to live in Canada for good. My......they will definitely start a new life there...everything will be new to them. TILL OUR NEXT MEETING, ALL WILL BE "SEE WHEN I SEE U TITA N ALI!"

Echo in the Darkness

Because of boredom, I made my way in reading another splendid book, An Echo In the Darkness by Francine Rivers. It's a love story beyond my wildest imagination, taken in the city of Rome way back in ages, where people dress in robes with public baths and the coliseum is very much alive. A time of gladiators, lions and politics hunger for power. My interest caught my attention in Hadassah, she's a Christian and a slave. She was torn apart by lions but a brilliant promising young doctor Alexander saved her, Hadassah has another love interest too, a rich handsome, young and powerful merchant named Marcus, they have something in the past. Marcus thought she was already dead by the scene in the arena. Hadassah in return for Alexander's kindness, she served him as an assistant in Alexander's poor clinic. But when Hadassah saw Marcus, she felt that she was still in love with him..The story is intriguing, maybe if I'm already half way, I will tell the highlights again here. So much for that I'm gonna return reading: )

new day

RING my bell! just woke up and feeling lazy today: (